//bday

thanx for all the bday wishes..
(=

bbq at ecp..
tiny gathering..
but i enjoyed it..
no photos thou..
i forgotten abt my camera in the bag....
:X

thanx for organising n preparing everything baby..
thanx for the surprise..
loving it..
love ya!

//love

no fights, no arguments.
no hard feelings, no nothings.
we didn't felt like we were in a relationship.
it broke my heart the moment u said to go our separate ways.
i didn't cry though.
how could i hold on to something that wasn't there in the first place?

talks were always a good thing.
but tears couldn't hold back anymore.
it just started rolling down.

when u said to stay with u.
it melted me again.
i don't deny falling in love with u.
but i didn't want it to be as a result of obligations either.

i m glad u told me how u felt.
i m glad u didn't give up.
i m glad we're still here.

//happiness

i was 1 very happy girl on 10april..
as unsure as we were of each other..
r u doing it out of obligations or do u really wanna give it a try i wonder..
no1 knows for sure where this would go..
but its of no harm i guess..

i enjoy every moment spent tgt..
the lil things u do make me smile..
u always seem so mean..
but u do the sweetest things sometimes..

falling in love unnoticeable..
getting so much so attached to u..
i m scared..
but i shldnt think so much..
opening up to u more..
getting to knw u more..
enjoy ur company..
n go with the flow..

'love is what makes u smile when u're tired'

//backtracks n vday

met lynn after work on thrus..
so nice to juz catch up..
heex..
went to sch on fri to go settle the sch fees..
den my dearest bestie came down to look for me before we drive home to park the car n go out again..
met weixian..den the 3 of us gossiped alot!
the only other person i wanna catch up with now is CHUA WEI JECK!

sch will start on 23rd feb..
weeeeeeeeeee!!
i'm quite glad i'm gg back to sch..
orientation in the morning of valentine's day..
how fun..u tell me..
lol..
din manage to talk to any1..
i think every1 looked tired n unapproachable..

dad lost his bag in genting..
they're stuck there till tmr or tues..
until he get the re-entry pass..
poor dad n mum..
think they're staying at my aunt's place in KL thou..

cooked dinner..but din really eat it..
juz tasted it..
n it taste gd..
hahaa..
its the first time i cooked cream sauce pasta frm scratch!
:D
i'm happy with my cooking..
lol..

so..simple dinner, wii guitar hero n movie@3am..
the curious case of benjamin buttons..
nice show..
a lil long..
but touching n sad..
i dozed of a lil..
guitar hero is fun!
dinner at aston's specialties..
love the steak..

time spend with u is always fun..
i do love it!
the lil gift bag..
it's really swt..
but tell me wat it means wont u??

*i think i'm falling.will u catch the fall?*

//vday

this came on an mms yest afternoon..
put a big grin on my face after it was read..
:D
so so so swt!!
heex..
<3<3<3
thanx so much baby!
tt made my day..
(=

//

the time we spend together..
the laughter we had..
the silly stuff we do..
the tiniest things u take note of which i dont realise..
the thoughts of u randomly thru out the day..
all puts a smile on my face..

//love

i always wonder how ppl feel about love..
how could they easily say they love a person??
how could they say otherwise juz a brief moment ltr??
1 could argue u dun need love to maintain a rs..
but i think otherwise..

some1 asked me..
do u need to have love to be in a rs with another person??
my ans was yes.. u have to..
love is still needed to maintain a rs..
be it watever type of love it is..
u need it!

between lovers..
it may nt b the passionate feeling u felt for each other frm the start..
n it becomes a habit after time..
but there is still love in another form..

frds & family members who fight n argue..
they will be fine after awhile..
love between them cannot b explained..

parents who were on the verge of a divorce but din do it..
love for their children stopped them frm it..
even when there's no love between them anymore..

there're so many different types of love..
which category do u fall into?

//lunch

baked brownie on mon..
i like..
its damn gd!
hahaha..
:D

met up mag for lunch yest..
catch up n bitch a bit..
i miss the ppl in sch la!!
haix..
the fun..
the nonsense..
hahaha..

mum's gg off to macau tmr morning..
den will b back only on sun afternoon..
sis' celebrating her bday on sun..

cramps..
I HATE!!
argh..
but at least i'm nt moody anymore..
hahaha..

tots of u would suddenly go thru my mind sometimes..
but many a times..
i would juz brush it aside..
i dun wanna fall too much..

on a lighter note..
bought a new shirt i eyed on at pull & bear the other day..
hahaha..
love love love it!!


i love my new shirt tt i juz bought!!!
:D

//massage

finally!
i went for massage..
at least my neck's nt so stiff anymore..
hahaa..
after so long..
the therapist was wondering how i could tahan the pain for so long..
:D

blah..
pimple outbreak..
damn.. i really hate it..
i'm feel emo at the same time..
wahaha..

i'm craving ruffles cheddar cheese n sour cream..
but the 7-11 doesnt have it!!
n i'm too lazy to walk to prime..
argh!!

its weird how i'd miss u sometimes n how u'd sometimes come into my tots..
there's no reason y this would happen..
it juz happens..
but it seems so surreal doesn't it?
how some1 tt barely knws u could miss u so much?

//edit
dentist says tt my progress is gd..
n it can b off in a few mths time..
weeeee..
hahaha..
i'm glad..
:D

went over to serene's place yest..
haha..
slacked n talked nonsense..
how long have we nt done tt??

//sing sing sing

sing sing sing concert..
backstage was chaos..
hahaa..
chaotic moments when u will feel tt u wan to b split up so u could do everything all at once..
my body's aching frm running everywhere..
hahaha..
anyhows..
the concert was nt too bad at the end of the day..

i woke up late today..
din make it there on time..
hahaha..
end up buying stuff b4 gg over..
after tt went to get more stuff..
:X

if u're happy with the moment..
den juz be in it..
n don't bother abt the rest..
but..
i guess there's this lil part which really wans to make things clear..
nt thinking of wat it might lead to..
which might complicate things a lil..

i'm starting to enjoy the attention i get..
but at the same time..
i knw it wouldnt last..
i really wish it would thou..
haix..
watever la..
i dun wanna think abt it..
i juz wanna go slp..

i wish i could turn back time juz a lil..
to avoid some things tt could be avoided..
to stop some things tt could be stopped..
n to juz live in the moment..
n nt bother abt the rest of it..

when there isn't a start..
how would it even have an end?

//license

weeeeeeee..
my license finally came in the mail yesterday!!
hahahhaa..
:D
i'm happy..
for tt moment only..

sometimes i wish i din knw some things..
but den again..
after knwing it..
i guess its up to me to make the decision..
its scary how much i've fallen again..

//love

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.


Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

People live, but people die. I want to tell you that
you are a dear.

If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)

you would bein my heart.
Would I be in yours?

//love & hate

settling in the new hse already..
weather's been great..
loving it..
sch is still a bitch..
so watever..

treading between love & hate is nt a gd thing..
hahaha..
emo for a few days..
PMS muz b the prob..
watever..

met jack jack up like finally..
shopping at expo john little sales..
how fun!
i love spending time w my buddies..
heex..

*I like life sweet & simple not otherwise.*