//hiatus

after all the assignments, my brain needs a break.
it seems to have been pulled into a infinite hole in the ground.

i've been on a long hiatus.
n it is still going to go on till i've finished my exams or when i feel like writing again.

till then.
this space will be empty~

//science centre

a day out with hel..
off to the science centre
it was fun~
walking thru the exhibits..
learning new stuff..
i din knw science centre had so many exhibits n was quite big~
(=

maybe i juz like spending time with the gf..
i did enjoy the trip to the science centre..
it's been a long time since the last trip..

the parents would b back on monday..
after being gone for 10 days~~
:D

//assignments

i'm finally done with all the assignments which dues tmr..
like FINALLY!
PHEW~~

i can get a gd slp ltr..
n i'm less stress now~

sch's been a bore..
but oh well..
there's no motivation to get my ass to sch recently..
this is bad!
:(

the lects are boring..
i need to start studying soon!
:X

//jz's wedding

jianzhong's wedding on the 18 july..
CONGRATS BOY!!
its so nice to see familiar faces..
its kinda like a gathering..
lil catch up here n there..
(=

Jianzhong's wedding photos

the parents are gg off to tibet for a holiday frm thurs nite..
till when..
i really dunno..
oh well..

its time to start rushing assignments..
there's 1 due this fri..
n 2 due the next..
i juz found out tt we had to pay to do 1 of the online test..
like wtf!!

would willingness make things work out?
sometimes i wonder.

sometimes you really sweet.
but at the same time you can be really cold.
the coldness i feel gets to me sometimes.
most of the time i just brush it off.
i make nothing out of it for i see it as you being you.
emotionless most of the time i can say.
its been so cold i cant brush it off easily now.

do i really love you?
i ask myself many a times.
i dont want to be emotional but i cant be emotionless either.
the ironies.
the contradictions.

i dont know what to make out of this.
i just need a outlet to let out some frustration sometimes.
oh well.
it feels like i'm ranting pointlessly.

//back to sch

end of the holidays..
sch only starts tmr..
but i already cant wait for the next holiday..
yawn.. i haven exactly had enough fun/rest..
hahaha..
watever..

wat did i do during the hols..
hmmmm..
street fest for the 1st mth after sch ended..
den 2 wks break b4 sch starts..

2 attempts at cheesecake baking..
1 failed.. the other was gd!!
heex..
more attempts to come~~
:D

baby's got me hooked on to prawning..
weeeeee~~~
went quite a handful of times..
but the last 2 times..
no catches..how sad~~
oh well..
so unlucky..
the gf said i was her unlucky prawning star..
wth!!
=p

//confuse

hel says i'm a confused lil girl.. m i?
maybe so..
oh well..
i'm really unsure sometimes..
i'm scared of changes that might follow..
i'm scared of the feelings tt i'm feeling..

2 different ppl..
leading 2 different life..
moving at different pace..
where would it bring us?
how would the outcome be like?
1 last try..
to work things out..
would we catch up, or would we juz be draining each other?

//

met up with mag on tues afternoon..
thanx for the lunch~~
caught up a lil..
but wasnt feeling very gd..

caught a cold on mon nite..
the girlfriend was so swt last nite..
panadol cold relief n vicks drops sent to the door..
loved~
(=

//ssf

SSF '09 has finally ended..
phew..
after 4 wkends..
finally could tk a rest..

class schedule is out..
sch starts in abt 2 wks time..
but it sux..
classes r frm 3.30 to 6.30..
really horrible timings..
a whole day wasted..
oh watever..

i lost my pretty pretty phone on sun..
argh..
i'm pissed off n upset at the same time..
its the bday gift frm baby..
i cant do anything abt it now..
since it is already lost..
but still..
i'm cursing n swearing at the person who picked it up..
oh well..
i feel so bad..
its barely 1mth old~~
T_T

//new hair colour

new hair cut n colour frm last thurs..
love the colour..
heex..
(=

//bday

thanx for all the bday wishes..
(=

bbq at ecp..
tiny gathering..
but i enjoyed it..
no photos thou..
i forgotten abt my camera in the bag....
:X

thanx for organising n preparing everything baby..
thanx for the surprise..
loving it..
love ya!

//holidays

finally done with the last assignment of the semester..
submit tmr..
phew..
its finally over..
i'm officially in holiday mode!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

i shall start baking again..
heex..

//sch

first sem in sch's almost done..
2 more lessons this wk..
1 report due on 16may..
1 written test on 14may..
n its the holiday!!
weeeeeeeeee..
:D

wat shld i do this holiday??
i dunno juz yet..
catch up with old frds..
go for short trips..
watever..

//love

no fights, no arguments.
no hard feelings, no nothings.
we didn't felt like we were in a relationship.
it broke my heart the moment u said to go our separate ways.
i didn't cry though.
how could i hold on to something that wasn't there in the first place?

talks were always a good thing.
but tears couldn't hold back anymore.
it just started rolling down.

when u said to stay with u.
it melted me again.
i don't deny falling in love with u.
but i didn't want it to be as a result of obligations either.

i m glad u told me how u felt.
i m glad u didn't give up.
i m glad we're still here.

//

assignments after assignments..
argh..
it's kinda driving me crazy..
i really dun like tt..
but i do prefer this to exams thou..
lol..
contradicting myself yet again..

2 due on 5may..
how m i gg to squeeze 2500 words out of this brain of mine??
the other is 1200 words..
doesnt sound tt difficult..
but all the theories and applications..
argh..

1 done..
1 more to go..
i managed to vomit 2500 words for the marketing report..
but i have no idea how to start the comms report..
n its only 1200 words..
gosh..
i'm dying soon la.....
can some1 do my work for me pls????

//happiness

i was 1 very happy girl on 10april..
as unsure as we were of each other..
r u doing it out of obligations or do u really wanna give it a try i wonder..
no1 knows for sure where this would go..
but its of no harm i guess..

i enjoy every moment spent tgt..
the lil things u do make me smile..
u always seem so mean..
but u do the sweetest things sometimes..

falling in love unnoticeable..
getting so much so attached to u..
i m scared..
but i shldnt think so much..
opening up to u more..
getting to knw u more..
enjoy ur company..
n go with the flow..

'love is what makes u smile when u're tired'

//-

assignments' been bitches..
3 were due on the same wk..
deprived of slp..
wrong estimation of time..
rushed like hell..
shldn't have procrastinated so much..

got back some assignment results..
1 distinction, 1 pass..
lol..extreme ends of the passing scale..
wooooooots..

cramps r killer..
argh..
bad moods i blame on PMS..
blah..

//emotional attachments

emotional attachments build up n grow with time.
it gets stronger without u realizing it.
and by the time u know it, its too late sometimes to get detached.

feelings n emotions cant be controlled all the time.
it'd just become more overwhelming after awhile.

opening is giving the other party the opportunity to break ur heart but trust that she would not.
opening up may not be the best choice.
but it seemed to be gd now.

ambiguity.
it occurs a lot of the time.
but y so much uncertainties?
life could be so much easier when everything is laid out on the table.

placed a bet.
not knowing whether it is a winning or losing 1.
things seemed bleak.
hoping it gets better with time.

no1 can say where this will go.
1 can only wait n see.
when playing with fire, withstand the heat.

//sch assignments

i dun even rem the last time i blogged..
it seemed like a long time ago..

sch's been on for almost 2mths soon..
how time fly by..
the amount of assignments seem endless now..
deadlines r all so closely knitted..
it seems tt the assignments r almost back to back..
damn the stress..
but submission always reliefs the burden temporarily..
before the stress level goes up for the next assignment..

next wk's study break..
no classes.. but there's a online test and loads of research to do for the different final assignments..

got back the result for the test..
i think my ans were crap..
but thank god i managed to pass..

//sch

sch started for a wk..
made new frds..
sch's fine so far..
there's 1 module which is really boring..
i wonder how i'm gg to get thru there..
the rest r ok..
mostly assignment based..
i'm quite glad abt tt!

braces r off already..
i shld b happy..
it does feel a bit weird..
but the retainer's a bitch to put on...
it causes quite a bit of pain.. really..
argh..

i will upload the photos when i feel like it..
:D

//pms-y

i'm feeling crappy..
so watever..
i blame it on PMS..

feeling nausea at work..
cramps setting in at the same time..
killer i tell u..
i wonder if its the coffee or im juz feeling sick..
PERIOD!!

last day at work..
sch starts on mon..
i'm quite happy to go back to sch..
i wonder how's the classmates will b like..
:X

KTV with miss tan last nite..
hahaha..
so last min!!
but we had fun..
:D

the purple lil cutie is loved..
but the handcuffs..
hmmmm..
still guessin wat it means..
watever..

//carebear

this lil cutie came to work with me!

hahaha..

(=

this came in the gift bag on vday..

it makes me smile looking at it n thinking of where it came frm..

//photos

WARNING: PHOTOS OVERLOAD!


New hair style.


date of the day.




me acting cute.


Killer heels.


Guitar hero at cine.

//backtracks n vday

met lynn after work on thrus..
so nice to juz catch up..
heex..
went to sch on fri to go settle the sch fees..
den my dearest bestie came down to look for me before we drive home to park the car n go out again..
met weixian..den the 3 of us gossiped alot!
the only other person i wanna catch up with now is CHUA WEI JECK!

sch will start on 23rd feb..
weeeeeeeeeee!!
i'm quite glad i'm gg back to sch..
orientation in the morning of valentine's day..
how fun..u tell me..
lol..
din manage to talk to any1..
i think every1 looked tired n unapproachable..

dad lost his bag in genting..
they're stuck there till tmr or tues..
until he get the re-entry pass..
poor dad n mum..
think they're staying at my aunt's place in KL thou..

cooked dinner..but din really eat it..
juz tasted it..
n it taste gd..
hahaa..
its the first time i cooked cream sauce pasta frm scratch!
:D
i'm happy with my cooking..
lol..

so..simple dinner, wii guitar hero n movie@3am..
the curious case of benjamin buttons..
nice show..
a lil long..
but touching n sad..
i dozed of a lil..
guitar hero is fun!
dinner at aston's specialties..
love the steak..

time spend with u is always fun..
i do love it!
the lil gift bag..
it's really swt..
but tell me wat it means wont u??

*i think i'm falling.will u catch the fall?*

/hair cut

new hair cut..
makes me look even younger still..
new hair colour too..
woooots..
haven taken photos..
mayb ltr tonight..
:D

i like the colour..
the hair cut..
hmmmm..
shall see..
nt too used to it yet..

//vday

this came on an mms yest afternoon..
put a big grin on my face after it was read..
:D
so so so swt!!
heex..
<3<3<3
thanx so much baby!
tt made my day..
(=

//

the time we spend together..
the laughter we had..
the silly stuff we do..
the tiniest things u take note of which i dont realise..
the thoughts of u randomly thru out the day..
all puts a smile on my face..

//CNY

A LATE HAPPY CNY TO EVERYONE!

i dont feel like blogging at all..
there is nth to blog as well..
time juz fly pass without 1 realising..
a wk has passed already..
CNY was ok..
many gatherings..
so much to eat..
my gosh..
i think i must have put on a lot of weight..

dental on monday..
braces may come off by the next visit..
which is end of the mth..
-big big grin-
weeeeeeeeee!!

contemplations on cutting my hair short..
hmmmmm..
either this wkend or the next..
cut n new colour..
:D

i miss my dearest meihan!!
miss lynn tan too!!
n n n jack jack!!!
when r u gg to meet me huh??

i juz realised..
there isnt any photos taken this cny at all..

//slpy

i'm in james' office..
to help do some admin work..
i'm amazed how i can wake up early..
lol..
i feel like slping now thou..
damn..
i'm getting bored..
i wonder y time is passing so slowly today..

application for sch is submitted already..
now i'll juz have to wait for the approval..
it shld start in feb..
i hope..

trimmed my hair few days back..
nt much of a difference..
but i'm loving the fringe..
:D

CNY's like round the corner..
but it doesnt feel like the festive season this yr at all..
hmmmm..
oh well..

//bbq

bbq gathering on sat evening..
i juz realised..
we din tk any photos..
lol..
but the bbq turned out juz fine..
:D

the food was nt too bad..
ordered frm bbq wholesale..
dearest bought the stingray, prawns n sweet potatoes..
the sweet potatoes were damn gd!
hahaha..

godma cooked the curry..
my maid fried the beehoon..
hmmm.. wat else..
the company was fun..
another gathering soon..i hope..

the last person to come..
thank you..
even thou u were extremely late..
u still came..
(=

made tiramisu yet again..
this time round..
its tasted much better..
but the mousse part is nt smooth enough..

cooked dinner last nite..
seafood pasta..
first attempt on seafood tomato sauce..
nt too bad..
everything was cleared at least..
lol..

//new year

time fly by juz like tt..
a yr has passed..
one doesnt realise how quickly time passes..
i was still in sch at the start of the year..
n by mid yr..
i'm outta sch..
so much time wasted..

this yr..i'm getting back to sch again..
i hope this time round i will do better..
i dun wanna waste anymore time..
i could have do more n much better things with the time i have wasted..

time to grow up..
no longer a kid..
gosh..
its scary isnt it?
to think of wat might come..

i shall stop being sucha procrastinator.
i shall b more decisive.
i shall not waste anymore time.
i must study hard this time around.